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smooth skin

Loving you
I buy a lotion I'll wear to see you
it's alcohol based
I choose smell over saturating my skin
use it all summer
fuck a few times
in winter in fall I use sparingly
reminded of the seconds we used our senses
why do I doubt you use yours
grow ever embarrassed
that maybe you do sense me
when you see me
I hate that you see me
I shaved my legs til they were skin
there's blood on the bed
they bled on the bed
the legs I do not know your opinion on
I try to hold onto the bottle for long
longingly I lather
too long
nothing matters
it expires
I'm wasteful
I love pink plastic
labeled pure peace
to buy it again is to bring you into my life
more than two scars from shaving
done it so many times for you
you always behave the same
should I wait and save
you saved the pictures of me
putting on my lotion
you're not the person who massages me
you're not moisturizing
you smell good
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